please do not be defeated by those moments

this is a hard and super busy time for me, as always, haha. i just want to write something to help myself, maybe keep some memories for the future, if i still alive haha(when i typed alive, the professor of DSMT also spoke the word alive too, will treat this as an good sign)

19th November
missed a course taking attendance every time haha, also miss a deadline of that course, f**k

18th November 2025
2 interviews, 1 live coding, 1 case study. none of them is hard, i solved most of the exercises, but not 100% perfect, always on the way to pursue perfectness. the case study one is the last round, and now is 17:12 19th, i haven't received any emails yet, don't know where it will go next? but given their swift feedback last time, i'm a little bit negative towards this right now, but i understood maybe they need some discussions within the team, ok, now positive again haha. for the live coding one, they said they will get back next week with an offer or a case study or something unpleasant(hope not), it's an NGO, so quite curious how will it feel to work in this kind of organization.