[Original work][Essay] Go out（英语/EN)

Should I go out?

I didn't lift my head, didn't look at the morning sun in the sky, thinking this.

Today's sun was the sun after the rain, and it was simply too blinding. Neither hazy nor lukewarm, the transparent pure white was firmly stamped upon the earth.

The grayish clouds that used to hang like a cement ceiling had dissipated like mist. Leaving no room to trace.

I just stared at the floor of the house.

Under such whiteness, even the minute cracks I'd never noticed before became clear.

On the bricks so discolored that it was hard to tell their original form, Black fissures spread across. They were so obvious—why hadn't I seen them before?

Should I really go out?

What if the sunlight blinds me? What if the heat gives me heatstroke? What if I trip over a crack in the street—deep enough to break a leg, one I never noticed before?

What if...

But then I remembered how grass always looks especially verdant after rain.

I stood up, ready to leave.