take the long way home

i saw the prophesy of a lifetime

home, love, bright room

someone standing in the kitchen smiling back to me

it was as real as the dream I once had of you

but what if it was never meant for me

growing old till death do us apart

what if I was never built in that way

like living is supposed to be an animal instinct carried inside me

what if i tell you

how quietly intentional its been to keep choosing tomorrow

when everyone else seems to do it effortlessly

If those are the last days of all of it

im only proud how far i have come

those beautiful, kind faces

i think of how they found their way into my life

I think of the things i left behind

from my mind and heart

life is good enough for everything i tried to become

and hard enough that I’ve simply had enough

can you see me going home now

after a long long way

warm, safe and eternal

the same place my mind used to wander to as a child

when i was in Uluru

i was told every rock every bush every lizard is kin

belonging exists beyond life, beyond time

i will never be truly gone 

I will be In your memory, in the ocean when you take a morning dip

perhaps your favourite tree in the park

part of the stars when you look up on a clear night

maybe then, you won't feel so alone

do you see me going home now

i never want to be anyone but myself

at least in your memory

i will be forever young and beautiful

don't you think —

that i was beautiful